Day 2 in Hell.

He ignores me, won't come near me, and then has an attitude when I get upset. Not only is he trying to convince me that he isn't going to let the stupid cunt back but now he's going to see his ex because she's having a meltdown over her wanna be boyfriend. This is the same woman that he was texting not even a month ago calling her baby, telling her that they were meant to be together, telling her how he wants her naked body pressed against his. I'm having so many problems right now. I really wish I could just throw this woman out and convince him that he doesn't need her. I think that after she leaves Sunday he and I are going to sit down and have a long serious talk. I can't keep doing this, if he's not going to be with me 100% then he's just not going to be with me.

My wonderful boyfriend...

When I started my relationship with my boyfriend, 3 years ago yesterday, I knew that our relationship wouldn't be easy. Why? He's twice my age, married, and has kids. I wanted to give the relationship a shot in hopes of it working out. I know I'm an idiot for trying but I truly love this man. I've given his absolutely everything that I have to give. He was recently separated from his wife and I jumped to his rescue. I moved in the day she moved out, cared for the kids, kept the house clean, cooked, you name it I've done it. I've been busting my ass proving to him that I can be a much better partner than his wife ever was, especially since she abandoned him and the kids. She came back this weekend to "see the kids" but ever since she got here shes been on the phone ignoring the kids, she drags him off to talk to him and I feel like I'm nothing. I've been trying so hard and it's not enough. He's going to let her come crawling back just so she can do this to him again, she's already done it twice before. I don't know what to do, or how to feel, or who to trust... I feel lost and confused. I've ruined every other relationship that I've ever had to be with this man and here he is throwing it all in my face.